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Thursday, August 18, 2005

Stuff Should Just Go My Way

Ugh! Things are still crazy in my house. I’m not completely prepared for the kids to go back to school, though I have a doctor’s appointment set up this afternoon for Darby to get her Kindergarten immunizations. That relieves me a bit. I don’t know exactly what is going on with the uniforms, but I have been told they are ordered and will be here any day, so I won’t be without on the first day of school. We’ll see.

Brian is looking for a job and while I don’t want to jinx anything by discussing it, the job we thought was going to work out is not working out the way we had hoped. It’s still not a lost cause, but it is quickly starting to look that way and it makes me upset. I really wanted him to have this particular job. He hasn’t really been searching since the prospect of this job came about, so I told him he should begin looking again. If this works out, it works out. If not, it’s not the end of the world. I want it to work out. I really, really want it to. Again, we’ll see.

Chloe has successfully been sleeping outside in her kennel. Brian believes she likes to sleep outside and while I don’t entirely agree, she doesn’t seem to hate it, so this looks permanent. He says that I shouldn’t make it such a big deal. She’s a dog, she’s not a person. She wants to sleep outside, she doesn’t think it’s horrible. Fine, but she is a little bit of person. She is. I’m telling you. She’s like a little kid. That has to count for something, right?

Brian is taking all three kids to the cabin tonight, by himself, and will return on Saturday morning. I have to stay home to go to work. How sad for me. I will be all alone for two nights. Usually, I love being left alone for a little while, but lately I have been getting a lot of alone time, and it hasn’t been all it’s cracked up to be. I am now missing our together time. I need more, but I will of course survive.

So, don’t I sound so sad and pathetic?? I shouldn’t because things are not entirely bad, and in fact, most of the time I am perfectly happy, it’s just so much seems to be going on at once. I feel overwhelmed at times. Maybe the alone time will be good for me. Maybe I’ll be able to get some things done and I won’t feel so crazy about everything. Maybe everything will work out like it should, or rather, how I want it to and life will once again be balanced. Sounds perfectly fine to me.


  • I've got to agree with your spouse on this one, sugar. It's just a dog.

    UNLESS, of course, it's MY dog. Then it's part human too.

    By Blogger Beth, at 7:17 AM, August 18, 2005  

  • Yeah, that's what I thought. It's always different when it's your dog. :) My dog is human too, she is!

    By Blogger Jolynn, at 7:58 AM, August 18, 2005  

  • I know, I know. I am just losing my mind these days. I think it has to be mostly hormone related, though I go crazy every once in awhile, even without baby. The other day I was dressing for work and looked in the mirror and almost cried. Just for no reason. I'm not a person who cries on a regular basis.

    By Blogger Jolynn, at 9:20 PM, August 18, 2005  

  • i'm not a big fan of making your dog sleep outside (not *your* dog, i just mean that generally!!) people who think dogs are less than people just because they are a pet bug me. but anyhow...

    i hear you on the job thing... shawn has been unemployed for EVER and his unemployment benefits are running out, um, now. and i can't afford this all on my own and he hasn't been making an effort at all to look and then his friend said he'd get him a job at his company so the looking stopped completely anfd then he DIDN'T GET IT. and now he's too bummed to look for anything else.

    yeah. when we're living in a box in an alleyway then we can talk. *fume*

    By Blogger cat, at 7:57 AM, August 20, 2005  

  • I know what you mean about dog owners. The people behind us leave they're dog outside 24/7. They never play with her or interact with her in any way. What's the point of having a dog!!!

    Money worries suck, but I agree, we shouldn't complain until we're out on the street with nothing, I suppose. :)

    By Blogger Jolynn, at 10:03 AM, August 20, 2005  

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