Stuff Should Just Go My Way

Ugh! Things are still crazy in my house. I’m not completely prepared for the kids to go back to school, though I have a doctor’s appointment set up this afternoon for Darby to get her Kindergarten immunizations. That relieves me a bit. I don’t know exactly what is going on with the uniforms, but I have been told they are ordered and will be here any day, so I won’t be without on the first day of school. We’ll see.

Brian is looking for a job and while I don’t want to jinx anything by discussing it, the job we thought was going to work out is not working out the way we had hoped. It’s still not a lost cause, but it is quickly starting to look that way and it makes me upset. I really wanted him to have this particular job. He hasn’t really been searching since the prospect of this job came about, so I told him he should begin looking again. If this works out, it works out. If not, it’s not the end of the world. I want it to work out. I really, really want it to. Again, we’ll see.

Chloe has successfully been sleeping outside in her kennel. Brian believes she likes to sleep outside and while I don’t entirely agree, she doesn’t seem to hate it, so this looks permanent. He says that I shouldn’t make it such a big deal. She’s a dog, she’s not a person. She wants to sleep outside, she doesn’t think it’s horrible. Fine, but she is a little bit of person. She is. I’m telling you. She’s like a little kid. That has to count for something, right?

Brian is taking all three kids to the cabin tonight, by himself, and will return on Saturday morning. I have to stay home to go to work. How sad for me. I will be all alone for two nights. Usually, I love being left alone for a little while, but lately I have been getting a lot of alone time, and it hasn’t been all it’s cracked up to be. I am now missing our together time. I need more, but I will of course survive.

So, don’t I sound so sad and pathetic?? I shouldn’t because things are not entirely bad, and in fact, most of the time I am perfectly happy, it’s just so much seems to be going on at once. I feel overwhelmed at times. Maybe the alone time will be good for me. Maybe I’ll be able to get some things done and I won’t feel so crazy about everything. Maybe everything will work out like it should, or rather, how I want it to and life will once again be balanced. Sounds perfectly fine to me.