Worst Week

I'm hoping this week is better than last week. Last week was probably one of the worst weeks of the year. It was. This year was going along so well and then last week just shot that all to hell. And not in a funny way. There's a show called Worst Week, actually there was a show, it didn't go beyond the first season, but that show was hilarious. Hilarity was not how my worst week went. In fact there was some crying and feeling down. I was thinking about taking up therapy again or quitting my job and hiding in a cave. A number of things ran through my mind as I tried to survive the awfulness that was last week. Anyway, I just received some news at work that did not please me and since I don't really give work specifics here, that's all I can divulge. Sorry.

Brian says that we need to be on a virtuous cycle instead of a vicious one. His way of saying what goes around comes around. I haven't been being very nice and now it's come to bite me in the butt type of thing. Which I understand. I know that happens. I've been expecting something because I haven't been very nice, but I just don't think this punishment fits the crime and karma is at least three points up. It's definitely not even, I will tell you that. I expect the scales to start to even out soon.

I watched a PBS show on dreams the other day. It was really interesting. It was about different research done on dreams and I started to worry that I wasn't dreaming, because I guess dreaming is healthy and especially REM dreams. Both Saturday and Sunday night I had dreams, I don't remember what they were about, but I did dream so I'm happy about that. I think there was something about not dreaming can cause depression and I don't really need that right now...

I think I'm going to get a nose job. A long, long time ago my nose was broken and it's this long stupid story, but it broke and I never had it fixed. Apparently it's really messed up. So messed up that insurance is mostly likely going to pay to have it fixed. (I say most likely because it hasn't been pre-approved yet, but the doctor said they way it looks it shouldn't be a problem.) I decided I want to get it fixed before the wedding and before engagement pics, which I need to get done soon. The down side is I will have a messed up nose for two weeks. One week I will have the cast and the next week there will still be visible signs of bruising. But people at work will just think that Brian beat me up. Ha! Just kidding. I will make sure every one knows what I'm doing.

Other than that not a lot going on. Just the usual.

Wedding Checklist...So Far...And Really?

-Location: Boise Depot

-Catering: Kanak Attack

-Bar: The Ram

-Rehearsal Dinner: Cottonwood Grille

-Colors: Navy Blue and Yellow

-Dress: Picked out, just need to order it.

-Rentals: Received a bid, just need to confirm.

-Cake: Uh, the cake is a touchy subject right now.

There's still a million things to do like get our engagement pictures taken and get the invitation design ready and send out the save the dates, get registered, but we're getting there.

I'm just glad we have the food and booze taken care of. We went Saturday afternoon and talked with The Ram about the bar. That went pretty well. But then we were driving home and Jillian said her stomach hurt. Which happens. I always make fun of her and Riley because they have weak stomachs. Anything can set those two off. Motion sickness, smell.

We get home and I go grocery shopping. Brian sets up Jillian in the playroom to watch a movie and rest so that he could brew some beer. When I return home I walk in the door and I hear bath water running. Not a good sign. "Did she throw up?" I yell up the stairs. I hear this poor, weak little voice answer yes. Poor Jillian.

I bring in the groceries. The water is no longer running but Brian is running around trying to do some time sensitive beer brewing stuff. He asks if I can put the groceries away in a minute. You know after I clean up the puke on the playroom floor and couch. I'm not kidding. That's what he said. Because of that "time sensitive beer brewing process".

Are you kidding me? Why am I always cleaning up puke? I go up there to start but not before I tell him he's helping me.

I'm up there for quite some time. He never shows. I go downstairs and he's messing with his beer. Uh hello!!! He says he's coming. He moved the playroom couch and leaves. I start wiping up puke when I hear Jillian yell "I told you you had to clean up by yourself". Yes, she said that!! What is it with you people???

I finish cleaning up the puke and I go downstairs and finish putting away the groceries and then I go upstairs to help Jillian get into her pajamas and bring her back down stairs where she pukes again. In the toilet this time. We get her on the couch and start to watch Where The Wild Things Are. I cuddle with her for awhile until she has to puke again. We just get her a bowl now.

Brian asks what we're having for dinner. Patty melts but I haven't started them yet. You know because Jillian keeps puking. After we finally get settled and we had dinner and Jillian is only puking a little bit because she's all puked out Brian says, "Wow, what a stressful night. I'm trying to brew my beer and Jillian pukes and you aren't here and I have to put her in the bath and then you get here and start yelling at me to help you but I'm trying to brew my beer."

"I know it is stressful isn't it? That's like my night every night."

"I know. That's a lot of work."

Really?

Food Changes

We have made a change in our house. With the food we buy. I watched the movie Food Inc. and I decided we were changing the way we buy our groceries. Because for some reason the stories struck a chord and I can't continue to ignore it.

First I decided to start using up every thing I already have in the fridge and pantry. I still have a few items left to use up, but for the most part we went through all the frozen meat and the unhealthy snacks in about a week, maybe two.

Next, I needed a place to buy meat. Either local or organic. I decided to go local. Which means making a trip out a few miles to a farm in Kuna, ID. Vogel Farms , where their animals are grass fed and they roam in the fields, not penned up in a dirty disgusting area where they can't even move. I see them when I drive up. Just hanging out in the field. Eating. They're always eating.

The only problem with buying local is that they don't have many chickens. I would prefer to eat chicken over beef and pork, but since we aren't going vegetarian I take what I can get. However, I will be serving at least one meatless meal a week. At least I'll try.

As for every thing else I am going to local farmer's markets and stands to buy our fruit and veggies and try and pick up items that are grown locally. There are a few exceptions, such as bananas and avocados, which I have to buy organic.

And shopping this way is not cheap. But that just means I need to cut down on the junk food and extra things that we don't actually need. My shopping cart has not been as full the past couple of weeks and it's kind of hard to figure out what is good and what isn't, but I think it just takes practice. And if I keep it up it will be easy to figure out what I want to buy. I think the kids probably hate the things I bring home for them to snack on, but they'll get used to it. And it's not like they don't get special treats every now and then.

And I just read this article. Which is another good reason to eat differently.